Monday, December 30, 2002

*prods self*
I think I'm well now. Especially after I got locked out of the bloody office for an hour after lunch.

Sunday, December 29, 2002

I've been very sick lately. Very. Heck, I can still barely taste my food. And those dizzy spells are going away ( but they're still there sometimes ), but the urge to puke is still lurking around the place. My new PS2 is now hooked up to my PC ( Von Darke's recommendation ) via a TV card - this means I'm officially bankrupt.

Anyway, last week's poll:

What do you think of Christmas?
Total number of votes: 15

Vote breakdown:
1. It's the most wonderful time of the year. (4)
2. It's when I celebrate the birth of Christ. (2)
3. I don't celebrate Christmas. (2)
4. I'm in for the presents and the parties. (5)
5. Bah, humbug! (2)

Right. I was pretty much with humbug earlier, but after the Christmas Eve dinner, fixing up the PS2 to the PC and recovering from my near death ( YOU try lying in bed in a feverish delirium ), I'm feeling much better about it.

Wednesday, December 25, 2002

Merry Christmas everybody! It's that time of the year again, and I'm down with a cold *snifff*. Christmas this year started off well enough - night Mass at Little Sister's Of The Poor with Mich C and the Simoniac, followed by picking up Von Darke from his house and then it was off to the Simoniac's house for Christmas Eve dinner. The menu: tomyam steamboat. It was wonderfully done, although I'm now paying the price ( constipation - my ass is RAW, people, RAW ). Junie dropped by and gave us some wine ( bless her soul ). Then Hel and Captain Insano joined us, and everything degenerated into a drunken stupor. Well, not everyone was falling underneath the table, but I suspect that must have happened after everyone got home. All in all, a fun night, with only a cold and ass problems to deal with the morning after. Small price to pay.

Monday, December 23, 2002

It's the Monday before Wednesday's Christmas. My body feels like someone grabbed me by the legs and slammed me against a hard wall several times. The Christmas shopping is only half done ( as my little sister told me last night ). I've finally paid off my Telekom debts ( dated March and April 2001 ), so they'll be calling those bounty hunters off my back soon. I'm also on leave today and tomorrow. I plan to sleep when I have time.

Sunday, December 22, 2002

Saturday the condensed version:
* Morning - Intel Walk for Charity ( 5km, but it seemed shorter )
* Afternoon - Aborted watch of Die Another Day, shopping + lunch instead in Prangin Mall
* Evening / Night - Xaverian's 150th dinner ( met lots of old friends, had fun )

Sunday the condensed version:
* Afternoon - Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
* Evening - Some shopping and a briefing ( Q&A )
* Night - Read The Exorcist: Legion, died of severe tiredness

Friday, December 20, 2002

Have you ever considered committing suicide?
Total number of votes: 14

Vote breakdown:
Yes. (6)
No. (2)
Everyday. (0)
Everytime the shit hits the ceiling. (1)
Hell, I've tried committing suicide. (5)

I've got suicidal thoughts aplenty. Suicide, or so I've been made to believe, usually stems from that 'I can't take it anymore' feeling. Or the 'I'm so sick of living' feeling. Venting one's frustrations at life might help with the tendency to obliterate one's self though. Therefore, to all you suicidal folks out there, here's a friendly Christmas message:

Don't keep everything inside.

( After a most grueling session of overwhelm and beat the shit out of the manager... )
*kick in the ribs*
Give the CEO a bad report about me, eh?
*kick in the ribs*
Think you're so bloody smart, eh?
*kick in the ribs*
Well Merry Christmas, asshole. I hope getting me fired is worth your miserable life.
*throws extremely bruised body of manager off the 26th floor*

And so we make that transition from SUICIDE to HOMICIDE.

Thursday, December 19, 2002

Melancholy has set it. I don't know, it could be the coffee. Gave me the much-needed boost in the morning, but come the afternoon and I start suffering from post-lunch syndrome. Doesn't help that everyone else in the office is happily chatting away to each other about the new project and here I am, twisting my brains in ways unimaginable trying to design some whackout application from hell ( where the requirements have NOT changed, but they might soon ). Yes, I'm left out of the new project. Why? I'm not too sure, but I have at least two theories.

Theory One: The whole damn project's in Chinese. I'm not talking verbal - EVERYTHING about it is written in Chinese characters. So Mr. Non-Chinese here is pretty useless.

Theory Two ( the conspiracy theory ): I'm getting fired next year. That's why no one here bothers to chat with me, except for that one guy in the office.

I'm handling this pretty well myself, thank you. Worst case scenario - I go postal and people start falling off Gurney Tower ( not me, everyone else ). Most likely scenario - I go home and weep in the solitude of my dark cramped crowded dusty cobwebby room. Most hoped for scenario - I get a job which pays higher, has less work and has a close to no traffic route to my home.
Christmas approaches, and I'm getting this feeling that I'm going to get fired soon. Again. It happened last year too. Last year around this time, me and a few others back in eBX thought we were going to get fired ( it came true in June the next year ). And here I am again, feeling like I'm going to be unemployed in the near future. Is this a Christmas thingy? Am I doomed to experience these feelings every Christmas?

Lugubrious feelings aside, I had to wake up at FIVE BLOODY THIRTY IN THE MORNING to fetch my sister to camp. At 6.30am, the roti canai stall wasn't opened yet, so I had dimsum instead. It was a stomach-expanding meal for RM8.80, but well worth it. Got home at 7.30am, played Diablo 2 till 8.15am, napped until 8.30am and then left for work. I was in a pretty bad shape - the world was spinning through half-opened eyes and all I wanted was a kind word of good morning from someone. Instead, what I got was a double shot of espresso from Starbucks below. Which worked too.

Sigh. In this office where only one guy talks to me daily, I'm kind of missing eBX. Solitude has its plus points, but its long-term effects can really - REALLY - warp a person's mind. Or maybe it's just the caffeine in me.

Wednesday, December 18, 2002

There's this headache which has been bugging me on and off for the past few days. It comes in the mornings just before work, and it comes in the nights after I've reached home. It could be brought upon by a change in the temperature - dawn to morning ( hotter ), dusk to night ( cooler ). Yet somehow I doubt that's the cause - I don't think I'm one who can be affected by temperature changes that easily. Anyway my headache two nights ago lasted until yesterday morning. It was a bitch waking up to yet another exploding skull.

The Christmas mood is finally settling in on my office - employee count today is at an all-time low of five. Not that it matters to me, since I'm always detached from everything else. Maybe I should consider taking leave on Christmas Eve. Just to stay at home and meditate on the birth of Christ. Hopefully, if this year's Con of the Year works out well, I will have a PS2 before 2003.

Tuesday, December 17, 2002

The problem with people and elevators - they like to rush in first, press the floor they want to go to and stand right there next to the elevator controls doing absolutely nothing. It really irritates me when people do that, especially when they stand so close to the controls that you can hardly press the floor you want to go to, let alone keep the doors open for other people. Lower down on the grievance scale are people who rush in, press their floor and flit away to a corner of the elevator. If you want to rush in, at least have the decency to press the 'Door Open' button while others swarm in. It's something of a social courtesy - first one in makes sure that the doors don't close on some desperate fellow trying to get in. Just a little constant pressure on the button - nothing that will kill or unnecessarily tire one out. Is that really too much to ask for? It probably is, especially for some of the people who work here in Gurney Tower.

Monday, December 16, 2002

This hot December night, we join Dr. Sam Beckett as he steps into the Quantum Leap Accelerator... and vanishes. I'm now watching the pilot episodes of Quantum Leap, and I suddenly feel so young again. Oh, to have a Quantum Leap Accelerator handy somewhere around here. It would be so nice to just step into it... and vanish.

Saturday, December 14, 2002

The Simoniac stopped by earlier, and I was witness to the birth of something potentially devastating to the privacy of Penang's occupants. We tested out night shots with his new camera. We tested out the camera's enhanced zoom, which enabled us to see the legs of somebody living on the opposite block of flats from mine ( Note to self: Your privacy sure as hell isn't guaranteed when you live in flats, so don't dig your nose in the living room with the front door open ). The Simoniac eliminated the little white dots when he took night pictures by taking them in the dark. His photography skills are improving. Soon, privacy in Penang will be but an illusion. Keep an eye on his blog - if we're lucky, he might even start posting up his very own homemade voyeur PGP ( Pretty Good Porn ).

Friday, December 13, 2002

I've just remembered it's Friday the 13th today. Von Darke was pointing it out to me last night just before he got on a bus heading south. Well he's still alive and well now, and my day's been pretty kosher so far. Perhaps the unlucky stigma associated with Friday the 13th is purely historical. Some Friday the 13ths, I don't even notice until Saturday the 14th. Then I'll go, "Wha-heeeeeeeey... 'twas not yesterday the 13th?" And then of course I'll go bitch to someone about the unlucky things which might have happened to me yesterday.
What do you think of late night suppers?
Total number of votes: 15

Vote breakdown:
1. Can't live without it. (7)
2. Only when I'm hungry late at night. (2)
3. Very fattening. (5)
4. I never do supper. (1)

Personally, I don't do supper much myself. It's... er... fattening. And as the whole world knows, I'm on a perpetual diet ( a fat lot of good it's doing though ). Perpetual just means that I'm dieting in theory, but not necessarily in practice.

Thursday, December 12, 2002

I bought a Hermione Granger bookmark on Tuesday. I was bugging my little sister about her and I ended up purchasing the bookmark along with my Punisher: War Zone TPB. Now the little witch is firmly marking my place in William Peter Blatty's Legion ( courtesy of Von Darke ). Which bugs my sister even more, cause now it's a fully occultish book and bookmark pair.

And no, I'm not a paedophile, in case anyone's wondering. I seem to get that a lot whenever I bring up Emma Watson.
Thanks to Mich C, I know have the soundtracks of Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Once More, With Feeling and The English Patient. Thankyouthankyouthankyou!

I've verified the existence of a economy rice shop which recently opened downstairs. No longer opposite MPH ( that space's been taken up by the Cafe, a place I would like to burn down someday ), it's now along the same row as Starbucks and the Roadhouse Grill. I didn't eat there today though, although I did do a walkby to check out its location. Apparently the regulars who used to eat at the old economy rice shop were already there. Tomorrow a few colleagues and I will probably go sample its delicacies.

Wednesday, December 11, 2002

I feel so weak today. I woke up feeling tired. I've been sleepy the whole day since I woke up. Occasionally I fall into yawning fits, where I yawn continuously for a minute or so. The fruit seller didn't turn up today, so no papayas. He must be feeling unwell again, cause he told me that he didn't come on Monday because he wasn't feeling too good. Now I lack the daily three pieces of papayas. I'm currently feeling quite bloated due to excessive water and that packet of bee hoon mee which is fast becoming a staple lunch. However, I've heard rumours that a new shop which sells economy rice has opened downstairs. If that is so, then I should go have a looksee tomorrow during lunch. Koay teow / bee hoon / mee is cheap. But quite valueless in terms of nutrients. I would be happy with some leafy vegetables and maybe an egg or a piece of meat.

Tuesday, December 10, 2002

Elvis day in the office. Someone's playing the King over here, and some of my colleagues sing along occasionally. If there's a fast number eg. Hound Dog, there might even be clapping to the rhythm. It's a pretty surreal experience. Especially when we get to songs like Love Me Tender. Then the sing-a-long REALLY starts. Pity my ears.

Monday, December 09, 2002

Today is a holiday for me. Which is worrying, cause not everyone is having a holiday. This isn't quite my company's style - usually, if someone in Penang is working, we'll be working too. But now it's like half of Penang or so is working and I'm at home worrying if I have work today. No mails in the company mailbox though, and one of my ex-colleagues confirmed that I had no work over ICQ. So now, all that's left is to fetch my little sister from camp at noon today. And putter around the house. I like puttering around the house. The environment of peace and calm is very soothing, especially after the hot hell-like weather outside during the afternoon.

Oh, and my father did end up watching Die Another Day at 9.50pm. He came back around midnight telling me how good it was, and why I shouldn't miss it. Apparently, it was seriously action-packed, as advertised by the Simoniac.

Sunday, December 08, 2002

Lethargy has set in after last night's Enterprise marathon ( 7 episodes ). That's why I spent the morning watching even more Enterprise, the afternoon at Splashpage and the evening playing Diablo 2. I feel pretty sluggish now, partly due to the cold. It rained in the evening just now - my father wanted to go watch James Bond in Die Another Day, but the rain was heavy. He ended up watching MTV on the couch. Me, I went to catch a nap. And now, I await the arrival of Hel and the Simoniac. My stomach clamours for dinner.

Saturday, December 07, 2002

Tea and dinner with Nael and Justine ( with appearances by Von Darke and the Simoniac ). Justine was nice, Nael was pretty smitten with the Simoniac.

Climbed a waterfall with Von Darke and the Simoniac. Hel fed the mosquitoes on the way up ( they were hungry, she was willing ).

Enterprise ( with Captain Sam Beckett and Ms. Hoshi Sato ). Accompanied with a cup of King's ice cream ( vanilla & coffee with pistachio almond ), followed by hot Milo and some digestive biscuits.
This week on Prosian Thoughts...

If you were stalked, you would:
Total number of votes: 12

1. Freak out and panic. (1)
2. Run run away. (0)
3. Stalk the stalker in return. (2)
4. Turn around and confront the SOB in public. (3)
5. Whack the living shit out of that bastard. (3)
6. Stalked? *I* stalk people. (3)

So. Stalking. Probably a fun activity for the stalker, not so the stalked. Me, I'm not really into stalking. That guy who took pictures of Pauline while she was bathing? Not me, but the Simoniac ( our resident stalking expert ). I can't really get into that mindset of following a person around all day in the rain or blazing hot sun. Or waiting outside the house for hours just to see that someone close the window to sleep. Or just plain stepping on people's heels. I'm the type who downloads videos clips of stalking activities from the Internet. Yeah, sedentary lifestyle, but it works. And I don't have to crawl up the roof just to take pictures of girls bathing either.

Thursday, December 05, 2002

Gah, my CTO's back in town. An oppressive atmosphere settles back into the office, and all my colleagues left for lunch at the same time. I know that at least one of them wanted to stay in for lunch, but the return of the CTO changed things. It's not that we don't like him or anything. It's just that oppressive feeling. Me, I get to shrug off oppressive feelings at work, since I don't socialize with anyone in the office. Maybe with one or two of them, but it's nothing really friendly. I for one do not gallop around the office.

Wednesday, December 04, 2002

TWO WHOLE DAYS of holiday for Raya! It's either Thursday / Friday or Friday / Monday. I don't know why the company is giving us a Monday holiday if Raya falls on a Friday, but I'm not complaining. Maybe it's a legal thingy. Maybe the government decreed that Raya MUST be two days of public holidays, even for Chinaman-mindset companies. Isn't that just so luverly?

So now, all that's left is to answer the eternal question: Should I spend four days sleeping on the couch, four days sleeping on the bed or divide my time equally between both? Decisions, decisions...

Tuesday, December 03, 2002

Woke up with a migraine. Went to the toilet for my morning shit, ended up bleeding due to a large stubborn piece of excretion. I actually saw blood all over the floor this time. Well, just a number of drops. So with the migraine and the bleedy ass, I decided to skip work. After dropping my sister off at the KOMTAR bus-stop, I roamed around Georgetown for awhile before going to work anyway. Perhaps, I thought, I'll just putter around the office until it was lunch and then go home. While puttering around the office, the migraine went away. So there I was in the office feeling all fine and dandy ( the bleedy ass sensations had subsided, to be continued later in a toilet ), without the all-important LUNCH.

That led me to take a nice stroll to one of the coffeeshops along Gurney Drive, where I became the unwitting victim of legal daylight robbery ( RM3.60 for one of the most miserable plates of chicken rice EVER ). Next time, I'll have to try other stuff. I thought I saw curry mee somewhere, but if everything there is going to be so overpriced I'm going back to my RM1 packet of mee from the morning.

Monday, December 02, 2002

Our secretary left last Thursday. Yes, it's byebye Connie, I feel bad that I forgot to mention it in my Thursday post. She was so much easier to make friends with than the previous one. So now, we're looking for someone to do admin work.

Now how did I suddenly remember this? Our lady boss / accountant asked me just now if I knew anyone from church who wanted to work as admin staff. I really didn't want to, but I ended up telling her that I didn't go to church regularly *cough*understatement*cough*. That led to an admonishment of why I should go to church and all. I was really tempted to get into a theological debate there and then, but instead I just smiled and agreed with her on everything she said.

I should have known that she was one of those religious types. I thought she had to be a Protestant or something when she referred to Our Lady of Sorrows as the church opposite St. Paul's. My hope now is that management stay off my back on issues regarding religion.

Sunday, December 01, 2002

Mich C and I watched Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets today. I thought it was a pretty good watch, preferring it to the first movie due to the more cohesive storyline. However, I didn't really get that sense of wonder which came with the first movie, with the exception of the first part where Ron and Harry had to get to school. Story's a little darker this time round, and I truly appreciated the rather unique nature of the film's antagonist this time round. It was pretty much an oowah moment for me ( I've never read the Harry Potter books myself, so I don't know what's going to happen next ).

Coming soon: Lord of the Rings - The Two Towers. Now this I know will be a better watch than the Fellowship of the Ring, cause I've read the book.